Npal's Musings

I have to decide

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 06:15:56 GMT

One would think that a job offer after four months of applying and interviewing and rejection letters would be the most exciting thing in the world. Yes this morning I finally got an offer.

It seems like the perfect position for me, working with a professional choir and doing education outreach in schools, it's like it is made for me. At least it is made for the me that graduated with a degree in Music Education.

The conclusion is, that my existential crisis that began a year ago hasn't resolved itself and that is darn frustrating.

So I have a degree in something I'm good at, but do I love it? Can I really tell myself that I have the skills and capability of going into an inner-city classroom with a self-designed curriculum and teach kids music? Can I stand to build any more darn character!! Will an 11 month job give me the direction needed to decide what the heck I want to be when I grow up?

Off to bed to ponder.

I like Maps

Tue, 03 Feb 2004 21:12:27 GMT

create your own visited states map
or write about it on the open travel guide

Beer & Meat Kind of Girl

Fri, 07 Nov 2003 05:07:28 GMT

What an odd Thursday. Went to my education class and ended up telling the class about this weeks episode of 7th Heaven. They were genuinely interested, I think it is because, secretly, they all love how applicable those Camden's can be to our daily lives!

Skipped Memory this afternoon to go to court to observe witness testimony for said class project. No testimony anywhere! Just lots of people checking out Tessa, Cheryl, Bina and I. We're clearly too hot for the Superior Court of Tacoma. I figure we can watch an episode of Law and Order and get all the information we need.

Two hour dress rehearsal followed by an awesome trip to E-9 for Burgers and Beer. Good times with good folks.

What a Thursday.

Whoa

Mon, 20 Oct 2003 18:40:57 GMT

So it's fall break weekend and I'm chilling in my room while it is absolutely pouring outside, it's very cool.

On Friday I went to Seattle with my parents for the weekend, we stayed at this really nice hotel, ate great food, saw the symphony (yeah for Bach) and then I dropped them off at the airport. This is officialy the only time that they have come and not gotten mad at me for something. We had a fabulous weekend, strange.

We talked all about grad school and I let them know how everything was going, but then they told me that I should think about taking some time off, two years or so, get a neat job, experience the world before I go back to those hallowed halls of academia. They've got a point, but never in my life have I had to think of doing something other than going to school and getting my degree to teach. Now there is an entire world of possibilities open to me, and I don't even have a clue where to begin. There are so many things that could be fun, and if I have food to eat and a roof over my head then it's all good. I never expected my parents to tell me to take some time off from school.

So, whoa. Alright if anyone has an idea of what I should do for two years, and it can be anywhere, really anywhere, let me know.

Mush

Fri, 17 Oct 2003 03:17:33 GMT

Is it possible to convince someone that you have both retrograde and anterograde amnesia? If it were, I would never have to take an exam again!

I woke up extra early this morning to study and to do the homework that I had forgotten about for my 9:30 class, and what happens? The prof doesn't come to class and I have lost precious sleep to read an article about a word that "academia" has made up.

So I had this memory exam today that Cheryl, Tessa and I studied for late into the night, and for the most part the exam was straight forward. But it got down to 5 minutes left and I still had the big 18 point question to answer. I hate it when you don't know the answer to half of an 18 point question. Ah well, it's over at least.

None of my profs were actually here today, but it still has managed to be a stressful busy day.

Going to say ciao to Hoppe, study for Block, sleep, take Block, do laundry, take a nap and pick my parents up from the airport for our rockin' weekend in Seattle.

Quick Poll: Harold in Italie or Romeo and Juliette?

Good Nap

Mon, 13 Oct 2003 23:54:23 GMT

Wow, I just took a three hour nap, and I even checked to make sure it wasn't drug induced. They gave me these pills this morning at the doctor so I could swallow through my sore throat, but they didn't say anything about sleepiness. I just took a three hour nap on my own, and I could have slept even longer. WOW. I don't know why this is so amazing perhaps it is delirium from the amount of sleep I just got.

What a hump day!

Thu, 09 Oct 2003 05:18:13 GMT

So this has been one of the best Wednesdays ever!! Not only did I get to turn in a rocking rough draft for Dr. Block, did I mention I LOVE music history, I had tea for lunch, watched Gilmore Girls and saw a Goldie Hawn movie for class. It was so super exciting.

They also had warm chocolate chocolate chip cookies tonight in the cafe, what a capstone folks.

I talked with some friends from home today and that was helpful. I find that it is okay that I don't know what my direction is any more, it's okay for me to be having my exestensial crisis as a senior. Maybe now I can start applying for grad school without giving myself an ulcer.

Also heard from Jason today which was nice. Everything seems to work it self out when we're both on the same plane. But still, it would be better if he were home now, but these life expereinces build character, and dammit I love character.

So that being said, I am going to continue to be the good college student I am and actually do the homework for the discriminating bitch of a teacher. Night all.

PS -- for all those folks who are having trouble sleeping at night and have heavy thoughts, you are in my prayers

Sometimes You Just Need A Good Cry

Thu, 02 Oct 2003 06:26:08 GMT

This day was so long and exhausting. For some reason crying really takes a lot out of you! I also found out that when I'm nervous and stressed I get really bad hiccups, they're obnoxious. Just to recap, got screwed by the Registrars office, had a tux fiasco, and I think I'm just super lonely. There are certainly the most wonderful people ever at school and they rock, but somehow they can't be and aren't the same as the one I love. So anyhow, in my lonely state I am going to read about Berlioz, because really, he just makes everything better. How you may ask? Because, at least life isn't as crazy and eccentric as Berlioz and I don't have to live with the thought that my music will be misunderstood and abused. So there you have it. Later, gator

Monday's are Fun-day's

Tue, 30 Sep 2003 05:30:03 GMT

So all in all an enjoyable day. I was so glad that the weather cooled down, I can study better when it is icky outside, but then again it also makes me sleepy. While on my quest for a hobby I watched 7th Heaven tonight. Man that show is so cheezy but I feel as though I've invested a year into it and should see how it turns out. The TIVO cut off the scenes from next week though, so now there is a whole before I see what befalls the Camden clan. I'm glad the TV season started again, it gives Jennifer and I something to do at night and it makes the weeks go by faster. This semester can end now, I'm cool with it! Okay well got my new people magazine today, so it's off to the land of trashy, pop-culture. Later

Productivity

Sun, 28 Sep 2003 22:07:50 GMT

So I stayed up way too late last night reading about Berlioz and then got up early this morning to get going on the day and frankly I can't handle all of this productivity. I've finished all of my homework for tomorrow and it is only 3:00! I wish I had a hobby, any ideas anyone? Sleeping, reading and music do no count. Well I guess it is back to graduate school research, I've made it to the 18th school on my list of 25, hopefully soon I'll know where I'm going to apply to.

I'm a college girl

Thu, 25 Sep 2003 19:17:35 GMT

So yeah, ditching the first class of the semester to go have tea. Wasn't terribly excited about going to my memory class, it is a very boring hour and a half.